Crashing in My Dreams

Last night, I wrecked yet another car while sleeping... Not at the wheel - in my dreams.

For the past several years, whenever I'm feeling out of control, I have a dream about crashing a car... Now, there are varying degrees of this, in order of worst to best. They seem to indicate the level of control I'm feeling in real life.

1) I lose control while driving a vehicle that isn't mine: For example, in one dream, I was moving a huge dump truck (for reasons I don't remember). I was driving down a slight incline - and many of my friends were lining the road. My old landlord (who apparently owned the truck) was watching... I kept slamming the brakes into the floorboard, but nothing helped. The truck picked up speed. I distinctly remember starring at my friends one at a time. Where I never specifically asked for help, I told the landlord I couldn't stop. He merely watched me coast by and did nothing.

2) I lose control driving a vehicle I used to own: For example, one night, I dreamt (dreamed? What IS the past tense of dream?) I was behind the wheel of my old Nissan Sentra. I was driving down a gravelly, snake of a road that descended a mountain. The car skidded on gravel, and my car (backwards) - careened off the road and down into a steep ravine. I remember the car landing. I was unhurt, but frantic about getting the car back on the road.

3) I lose control driving my current vehicle - the one I have right now in real life: These are the best of the crash dreams... because it seems to indicate that I'm at least feeling like I am responsible for what's going on around me in real life, even though the situation that summoned the dream is difficult... I know life's getting better if I can lose control of the car - and in the end, regain traction and position on the road.
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These dreams came en masse years ago, sometime before I left a crappy job... - I crashed a vehicle every night for months. When I told a friend about it, she looked at me and advised, "Kelly - get out of the car!"

Eventually, I quit my job, and have been crash free for several years... (My dream insurance rates have returned nearly to the rates I had pre-crash dreams.)

Until last night.

(I'd explain what situation I'm feeling out of control with, but it's a work thing - and it's nasty...)

In the dream, I was packing from a video shoot - I was having trouble getting all of my equipment back. The location was a hotel terrace, post party. Everytime I organized my equipment, some of it would be moved by hotel employees. When I straightened out one pile, I 'd return to find my staff goofing off, and another pile would be gone.

Eventually I loaded the SUV (not mine - not even a vehicle of someone I know). I began to back out of the parking spot, but the brakes weren't working - the car started to move forward and hit a parking median. I was angry... and in my haste, I slammed the car into reverse, and crashed into a Jeep.

That just sucked - in both the dream, and my waking life.